Post cancer check up

Hey hey!
It has been a while but today I had my first post cancer check up. I met with my oncologist and he was so excited that I did so well! I had some blood work done and will go back in 3 months. I will also have a PET scan in 3 months and as long as that is clear I will just need routine CT scans after that!
Time went by so fast in between getting the all clear and now I didn't have time to stress about the cancer coming back. I didn't get nervous until I was in the office today but even then I told myself "if it comes back I'll take it a day at a time just like last time." I'm confident that I am still cancer free and if I had to, I'd kick cancers ass again!
Mentally I've been okay. My biggest challenge at the moment is my weight. Don't get me wrong I LOVE being a curvy girl and I wouldn't even feel comfortable being skinny but between birth control pills, steroids during chemo and the stress of it all I've gained a significant amount of weight. I feel very uncomfortable in my own skin at the moment and am having trouble finding the motivation to do something about it. I started doing yoga, using the elliptical and some weights but it's stressful trying to fit a work out in during Jude's nap time. Sometimes he sleeps for an hour and some times 2 or 3 hours so I never really know how much time I'll have. I can't work out when he's awake because he would literally not allow me to take my focus off him. I can't work out when Sam gets home from work because that's when he works out and then it's time for swimming lessons or to get dinner going. I spend my days thinking about how I need to do something to better my life but I don't know where to start. I need someone else to hold me accountable without bringing me down or having to pay to join a program. I get so stressed out thinking about what I need to do that I don't end up doing it. How is a mom supposed to find time for herself? Ugh.
This summer Jude is going to be living in Maine at my in laws lake house. Sam started summering there when he was around this age so we decided to let Jude go. I know he's going to have a ton of fun but I try not to think about it too much because I know it's going to be really hard to be away from him for 3 months. This will be a great opportunity for me to get my life on track and hopefully find a job that I am capable of and works with our schedules. So much is going on right now since we will be bringing Jude to Maine in a month! I'm excited to also get to visit my family in Massachusetts! Hopefully things start getting better soon.

Peace. Love. Fuck cancer