Chemo #5

Yesterday was chemo number 5. Everything went really smoothly. My port wasn't clogged and taking away the 4th drug cut down a little on the time. As I was waiting for Grandaddy a woman receiving chemo began to have a seizure. They were short one nurse so I ran for help. One of the people at the front desk was able to help me find the oncologist and they acted quickly to help her. I was again reminded how lucky I am to be so healthy throughout this. It still doesn't seem real. I had virtually no symptoms of the cancer and virtually no side effects from the chemo and I am mostly cured. There are so many millions of people out there really suffering through this disease and many people who do not live. I am so amazed by my body and it's ability to get me through the smoothest pregnancy and delivery while unknowingly having cancer and then getting me through chemo.
I am feeling good today besides being sore, tired and having hot cheeks. I know that bleomycin was what was making me a little sick before. I'm so grateful that I don't need to take it anymore.
This morning our neighbors puppy, Charlie, escaped through a gap in our shared back yard fence and was hit and killed by a car. I feel so guilty for her death. I brought a gift basket, white roses and a card to her owners but feel like I should be doing something more. I'm so saddened by this loss. Both of my dogs loved her, especially Brady. They were definitely  in puppy love.  She was such a sweet little pup who didn't deserve this and her owners are such nice people. I'm so shocked and heartbroken, I've just been thinking about them all day.
So many ups and downs the past week- I just hope it ends on a good note.

Peace. Love. Fuck cancer