Port removal

Yesterday I got my port removed! I was really excited and not nervous at all. I had Sam drop me off on his way to work at 7:20 ish. My surgery was scheduled for 10 am but they wanted me there early to do paperwork and get prepped. They didn't end up taking me back for prep until around 10:15 and then I had to wait in another area for a while. They scrubbed around my port twice before bringing me to the surgery room at around 11. They scrubbed me down some more before draping me. I got some "twilight" by IV and lidocaine injected around my port. I still had feeling when they started cutting so I flinched and they gave me more twilight. It made me super sleepy and I almost passed out but the surgeon was tugging around in my chest and talking to the nurses about dogs and vacations.
The whole thing went by pretty quick. They put stitches under my skin and then used glue to hold my skin together. They bandaged me up and brought me to post-op so they could monitor me for 1 hour. Granddaddy came to pick me up and I was feeling great. I had no pain at all but was starving since I had to fast before the surgery. We stopped for lunch at a Mexican restaurant in town and it was so good. I got some cheese enchiladas and was so hungry that I devoured them in just a few minutes. While we were eating I started to feel some pain where they made the incision. By the time we got home it was worse. I tried to take a nap because I was exhausted but the pain was making it hard. I took some Tylenol and advil when Sam got home around 5 which sort of helped. I was pretty uncomfortable trying to sleep last night but by this morning the pain was much less. It was itchy today and I'd occasionally have an achy feeling there so it wasn't too bad. I get to take my bandage off tomorrow afternoon and take a shower! Sam and I are going to a wedding tomorrow so I hope it's not too scary looking.
It already feels better not having to deal with my port anymore. I can move my neck around more and don't get that really freaky feeling of the tube moving around in there. I'm just so glad to finally be free of it all. Free of the cancer, free of the port, free of the constant worry and fear.

Peace. Love. FUCK CANCER!

Post cancer life

Yesterday was my first day on my own with Jude again. It went a lot better than I thought and I was able to clean the kitchen while he napped. My house hasn't been my own in a long time so I've been trying to reorganize and get everything to a place that's more functional for me. I'm trying to go one room at a time but it is exhausting! By the end of the day yesterday my back was killing me. I definitely need to get back on the elliptical and regain some strength but I really want to clean up the house and organize first.
This morning Jude said his tummy hurt and wouldn't eat breakfast. He had a hard poop so I thought maybe he felt bad because he drank some cow milk yesterday. He was acting really tired around 11:30 so I brought him home but he still wouldn't eat and said he didn't want to nap. I went to make some lunch to see if he'd eat it and then I heard him throw up. He threw up all over my phone and then again all over the floor. It stunk like sulfur but he seemed fine right after and even ate some crackers. I finally got him down for a nap about 10 minutes ago. I think he must have ate something weird or is sick from the milk. I'm exhausted now thought and don't know if I'll be able to get anything else done today.
Tomorrow I am getting my port removed! I am so excited! I hope that the recovery isn't too bad. I have to get to the hospital 2 hours before my surgery for prep and can't have anything to eat or drink after midnight tonight. I can't wait to get this over with and I hope it'll help things finally really settle in.

Peace. Love. Fuck cancer!